I'm So Sorry

I'm so sorry that I haven't been posting lately....

My recent illness took a little more out of me than I thought...

My days pass by in a blur....I sleep...I wake up....I go to the bathroom....I rest there after I'm done....I make my way back to bed....I sleep....my wife or Stacy wakes me to eat something....I eat....I rest....bathroom again....rest....back to bed...sleep....

I take the occasional break to cry....because I want to be me again....

Then I see what's going on in the world....and I cry some more....then I feel like an ass for being so selfish....I'm sleeping in a comfy bed and I have as much food as I want when so many people don't have either....

I actually think I'm depressed about being depressed....if that makes any sense....

I know several thousand people a day stop by here to read my silly musings and I hope to be back soon....

But even just typing this has left me exhausted....the laptop is so damned heavy....

Just want you all to know that I still love you all!!!

Kisses

Kaaren

 

Well...I'm Alive...

 

 Well....I'm alive....

A week ago I'd have bet against it!!!!

I've discovered what a wonderful thing it is to breathe!!!!

You don't think about it until you can't do it!!!!

But....I'm here.....alive....

I'm not really back to myself yet....the doctors warned me it would take some time...

Not that long ago I'd do a three mile run just to warm up for the day...

Now I get exhausted going to the bathroom across the hall....

I've probably slept more in the past couple of weeks than I have in the past ten years....and I still feel so tired...

I dropped a few pounds but I don't recommend doing it this way....

Anyway....I just wanted to say hello....and thank you all for the good wishes and lovely comments you left....

I'm going to post this on all of my blogs just to make sure I thank everyone....and then I'm going to go back to sleep....

I love you all....

I hope to be back to my regular self soon....

Kisses

Kaaren

Another Update

When your loved one is in the hospital there is nothing more terrifying than a late night phone call from your doctor. I saw her name on the incoming call and I felt my heart stop!

I was shaking and already crying when I answered.

But the voice on the other end wasn't my doctor, it was my sweet husband!

He sounded better. He called to tell me that they were going to release him on Saturday and I just fell apart.

The tension and worry and fear all came pouring out of me all at once,

My friend Stacy rushed in to see what was wrong and immediately feared the worst.

"Is it Kaaren?"

Al I could do was nod .

I held out the phone to her and she reluctantly took it.

The look on her face when she heard "Kaaren's" voice was something I'll  never forget.

I finally got myself under control. I realized that i was upsetting my Sweetheart and I didn't want him to worry about me.

We spoke for a while and he told me that he really felt better and was glad to be coming home.

Then he gave the phone to the doctor who told me that he had really responded well to the antibiotics, his lungs were clear, and he would be much better off at home.

I've just come back from tucking him in. In his own bed. In his pretty nightgown.

He's doing so much better but he's clearly been through an ordeal.

But I think that the worst is behind him now. Behind us now.

Thank you all for your good wishes.

Mrs. K

 

An Update on Kaaren's Condition

 

"Kaaren" came home on Monday but it was clear to me that she was still ill.

He was experiencing difficulty in breathing.

He was so happy to be home that he kept trying to convince me that he was fine, when he clearly wasn't.

On Tuesday morning I called an ambulance once again and he was taken to the Emergency Room. He was experiencing extreme difficulty in breathing.

He was re-admitted to the hospital and I was informed that his condition is serious but not critical, a small comfort to say the least.

Once again he's receiving antibiotics and there has been some discussion of putting him on a ventilator again.

Our physician, an old friend of mine, has told me that she is closely monitoring his case and that gives me a bit of relief.

As of today "Kaaren" remains in the hospital with no definite release date being mentioned.

As per his request I'll keep you informed of any changes.

Mrs. K

A Note About Kaaren

 

Some of you may have noticed a sudden end to "Kaaren's" posts last Tuesday.

The truth of the matter is that by Tuesday afternoon my husband had become quite ill and was taken via ambulance to our local hospital on orders of our family physician.

His diagnosis was pneumonia.

"Kaaren" was admitted and placed on broad spectrum antibiotics intravenously, and oxygen.

On Wednesday they placed him on a ventilator to help him breathe.

Thursday he was responding well enough to the drugs that they felt it would be alright to take him back off the ventilator.

His lungs were clearing and he continued to improve on  Friday although still not enough to allow me to bring him home.

They've held him this weekend and continued the antibiotics and I've just gotten off the phone with my Doctor who, to my joy, told me I can check him out and bring him home on Monday!

He will still need some care at home and I must be vigilant for any reoccurring symptoms, but my Sweetheart will be home with me and that's all that counts!

I don't know when he might start posting to his blogs again, probably sooner rather than later.

I got off the phone with him not long ago and he asked me to post this update.

So there you have it.

 

Mrs.K 

Get A Job

"C'mon Linda...you told me that I had to get a job or you were gonna throw me out!!!"

"But not like this Gary....I don't want you doing lapdances for anyone but me..."

"Alright Baby....but I've got a high roller waiting and he's paying me $500 for five minutes....after that....only for you!!!"

"Whoa!!!! $500 for five minutes!!!! Maybe I've been too selfish....after all you look so pretty...."

Happy Valentines Day

 I hope you all have someone to share your heart with....